IT'S REALLY HURTS!

hurm... sumtimes i feels like i need sumone besides me.. accompany me wherever i'm sad or happy... laugh wif me.. crying wif me... make me laugh loudly! made a smile on my face.... terima diri ini apa adanya... mendengar setiap patah perkataan yang ku tuturkan... hear the whispers from deep in the heart of the most... wipe the tears that fell to earth... i really need him... sumone who can supported me....someone who can calm my heart and mind... gave me a spirit to live... but who is him?? is he exists in this world....??

sumtimes love is beautiful... make me fly away into the fantasy world...smile engraved on my face 4 24 hours...! sememangnya indah.... hurm... for me.. love is complicated...sumtimes i dun know the meaning of love.... despite the fact that i was in love yet! love make my life miserable!! love make me too need love to... n sumtimes love is hurts...they come and then go without my willingness... i lost my direction when love doesn't with me anymore... my life is empty! no colour... no laughter @ smiling are carved on my face... there r only tears .... tears falling from a girl... a lonely girl...........

i miss nostalgic memories of my past ...memories of when i dreamed a beautiful dream...where there is only sweetness in my life... no tears are falling even a drop... i laughed happily ... i smiled.. nice time.. my life is full of colorful n while the flowers that bloom and grow... and now .. it is only a memory... just empty words... promise has been broken.... i hate him! i hate when he left me... hate to see me crying bcoz of him! what fault of mine to you??

i'm too 'smart' to believe their words... ryte? i was so far in a very deep hole! difficult for me to go out from there.... n they are! the adam! not humane and caring nature... leave me alone... alone! no light to lead me out of there.. i cried! they went without a turn towards me... i am lonely ... i screamed for dear life.... my mind is screaming... This wound is too deep and painful.... but... nobody listen to me.. but they r only laughter! laugh! no one is listening to me moan ... nobody!

i need sumone who understands myself.... loves me... understand my feelings.... someone who can cheer my days.. but.. throughout this love world, no one who understands my condition.... no one who understands this little hearts.. their love is based on passion only... delighted to have the word that they say "i love you,syg!"..! i hate them! really hate them!! I have been used by them! none of them really love me wholeheartedly.. none..!!

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